But everything's fine, glad. mom admit to hosp on Thurs, surgery on the next day. Was planning to visit her after my class, but sadly due to last Fri was a good friday. I'm been told to work on tht day which my boss have to leave early for church. And tht was fine for me, i still can visit her on the next day at afternoon after my work. And guess wat, they planned to held tht fair well dinner for my 2 colleagues at the night on sat, i was like in the middle one, hardly pick which of it. I consider quite closed to 1 of my colleague and of course i don't wanna miss it and the visit as well. Miserably, i only have one soul and one human body, if my soul discharge from my body means im dead and i don't wanna be dead yet, there's still many thing for me to learn and people to take care. so b4 coming to sat, i made my decision that i will pay a visit to my mom instead going for dinner. But hell yeah, they change their decision and the dinner will make it at next day, Sunday. Mom checked out from hosp on sat with my dad and come fetch me by the time i finish my work. So i guess the food i bought for mom can eat at home. lol But its a good thing my mom came back early, its mean she recovered fast but she seems like in deep pain written on her face when i saw her. But everything seems fine after that. finger crossed~
Anyway, today still got 1 and a half hr before i finish work. Something bad happened on me, same thing happened during the beginning year of 2010 or 2009 for few time. I hardly recalled when its the last time it happens since its been awhile ago. I've never told anyone about this incident at all during 2009/2010 untiltoday i went back after work. I was really in pain and nearly fainted and i told my mom how it occurred and i was told having expansion of blood. " 膨血"
I was truly suffocate and terribly torture by it, because still got 1hr be4 the work end, i thought i might as well hold on and bear the pain and continue do the teaching. Out of nowhere, this illness came very sudden. At 1st, you will be like 1 side of eye sight will turn abnormally. If ur healthy and when u look at one object there will be only one and the same figure appear by observing with both eye either either one side of eye. But i saw the one object with 2 same figure appearing with my both eye and its like the object i saw floating in the air. somehow like illusion, but its was not illusion, its was like small part of 1 of your eye just went blur, and very difficult for me to read Q for student. Normally i can read the Q when the book is upside down facing me, its to suit the student but today i read wrongly most of the time. But luckily, my student corrected me. Then after half and hour after the illness struck me, my head felt heavy head ache and i felt terribly cold than usual. That moment, i felt its like coming to end of my life. I was wanted to tell my boss tht i dun felt well at all. But another boss approach to my student and stand just right beside me. And that's the moment turn me off. Then i just bear for another half and hr, and quickly went back after that.
Its was so hard to find him to chat with me this recently since he only on9 during the morning & sometimes non at all. I can feel theres no connection from him, but atleast try to talk with me. I jsut need somebody to talk with, mostly i only speak out when i was working. If i were at home i will beeome autism. I hardly speak to my mom its was becoz if i speak too much. we will end up quarreling and debating with each other. I should go to sleep, since my hair almost dry. Goodnight
i look so dead. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!! Am i ready for dead? still got bit doubt about it.
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