Im still awake 6.30am

OMFG!! It 4.50am currently. Can't believe i'm still awake now and so motivate to blog. HA! =p
I should have gone fatigue since i awake in the morning of 10 to revised all the necessary topic before going for exam. It's kinda disappointed and depressed once after the exam is over rather than being relieve or what so ever, it's seems to applied on the friends around me as well. Kept complaining to each other about the time given wasn't enough to attempt all the 5 question. Sadly, if the result out wasn't at the rate of passing, we might as well do better next time and learn from mistakes that never ever try to revised all the 5mth course in a month. But then since cat, i never did what i said to myself, especially i started work after the introduction paper. Consequences of not revising consistently, will lead to overload of data and brain cell overdrive when trying Hto absorb "everything" in 2 week or a month. Especially, when you need to absorb 500pages for only 1 paper, excluding the notes copied, note give, revision note, etc would exceed up to 800++ or more. Definitely a disastrous, no differences with committing suicide except your still can sleep, eat  & play. But no choice, who the heck ask me chose to work full time while studying. Therefore, if you can't handle multiple task, you should have consider to let go, ie, work don't study either study don't work. Or else you must known yourself well and be very determine, balance your working and study. OR or your came from a wealthy family, no financial problem to worry, why would you bother to work?(as im reflecting to modern century)  

Don't be sensitive over the issue i brag about, i am actually pointing myself that i need to make a change in my life. Sigh, fundamental level wasn't easy to go through, what said the future professinal paper. jp ar jp ar... sigh =(

I got so many plan and activities to do for the week ahead me. First thing first, i want to go swimming, back to my workout track. Have a sudden thought of going diet, but wont forbid myself eat that eat this. haha.. Sad case, i have to back to work later in less than 8hr. Think of positive side, i will be having a week holiday off before welcoming the year of 2011. Hmm, thinking where to go.. lol
But according to all the previous year, mostly i would stay at home and online 24hr =,=
Eeee... hopefully history wont take place for this year. finger crossed*
Can't wait to laptop to get format, its hard to survive without own pc.
Anyway, it was dad birthday, 13/12 would like to wishes him

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA, 

stay HEATHLY & STRONG as always 

Yawn~ Signing off here

 

我真是唔知我是一厢情愿 或者 两情相悦, 不敢再想了

VIRUS

My laptop kena virus somehow doesnt look like a normal virus, more like a hoax. i never use internet explorer as my browser, suddenly today once i switched on the laptop. some link just fucking pop out from the internet explorer, i use the task manager to end it, switch the IE(internet explorer) in to offline working mode, do anything as i could do end the virus taking over my laptop system. But somehow it doesn't work at all, it just kept worst. Worst than you could imaging that the virus pop up with those sex link more than 6 tab in a window, and 15 window so far i see. And if you try to close the link as will appear a notice for closing the tab, somehow it just wont allow me. Because the blardy virus damn geng or wat they shut everything when i try to shut them down. It even get worst, that the virus fight with me by kept pop up window when i close it or try to close it.  I even called up my IT friend for the help, as he told me he never see such virus so damn serious. And by the way, i had to say bye bye to the internet world until 15th Dec. Because nobody could be trust at outside for sure to repair your laptop. Have to wait my friend free after his big project. Sigh, i could only on9 on midnight using my bro pc =S to check the passesunlimited only, no msn, anything want to find me just leave me email(hotmail), or sms me. 
SUCK max, because i have decide to format my laptop without backing up anything to avoid any chances of virus coming back from the future, i guess i just need to download 300+ songs again
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA X<  




END of the ONLINE World, see ya next year.
virus come at the good timing, no???if u know wat im talking

Future thoughts

I have a sudden thought about my future plans. Hmm.. where should i begin with. I thought of giving myself a break from the working world by resigning from the job i has worked for 2 year on the coming year 2011. Wanted to take a break for a intake for my study as well to cover all the syllabus of the previous paper which has been taken. I use to read the question and get the diagram in short period of time but i am not now. I felt that i have been disimprove, and got worsen as well. Maybe due to work overload, but i shouldn't blame the caused of it. Maybe its because i'm getting lazy, lazier, laziest and lazzieasst. =S I kinda lost my passion of study and my time management suck max. Who the hell come back from work, still have the freaking mood to study and revised. Seriously, i didn't even bother to TOUCH it until come to a month before the final exam. Great, everything come with a price. i know i deserved it, sigh. 

About my sudden thought was, i have make up my mind that i will continue working while studying as well. But definitely gonna change my job, but yet nothing gonna change my love of teaching. Maybe teach on weekend??? Hmm.. the problem is, can i handle the workload? or either my time management for study. I'm worried it will make things worst for my study, that deep down inside me already knew my study gonna be completely neglect. Any suggestion??

don't be deceive on what you sees

Frustrated

In this hour of midnight, I should be gone sleeping either everyone for the sake of good health for body. I was indeed sleeping just now but i just cant, all the heavy thought in my mind. I'm sad and mad about my sis, why cant she change and face the fact. Every time she came home with her personal problem, relationship problem, money problem, medical problem, all sort of problem that you hardly bear with. All the problem, troubles is not as simply as you thought it should be. Its involved hospital, clinic, boyfriends came in the middle of night for not trusting what she said, all kind of ridiculous occurrence. And sometimes its happened so sudden that seems so doubted, out right nonsenses, crazy. Seems like all the problem of hers often occurred has become part of our life that we had get used to it. But sometimes you just get so annoyed with all those problem and how badly you wishes and hopes to have a peace for ONCE for the god sake when she came home. I still love her nomatter who she was, she always be my sister, the one and the only sister. Somehow how badly i hope she realized what she was doing, and awake from it to prevent the same mistakes keep repeating. Everyone learn from their mistakes and grew from the experience  to build better future, theres nobody love you more than you love yourself. 
Maybe i'm just depressed recently for the coming revision class, preparation for exam, tight work schedule, and the people around me being dishonest when they lied infront of your freaking face. Just be true to yourself, there's no different  between you and me if you look at everyone as a human, we are all the same. Maybe there are reason behind the lies. Sigh, just accept the fact of truth underneath the lies.
I should take a deep breath and head to sleep. =O 
goodnight.

Someone

It's been awhile since the last post. Maybe due to exam, workload, and class. Or maybe i just lost my motive to blog anymore due to certain of occurrence that makes such a huge impact in my life. But i do believe that no matter how busy your life would be there is always time, it just depend how you utilize your time. Talking about time management, i cant denied that i have a bad time management. even thought i knew the amount of workload needed to be done in a day. I would still spend some hour on online-ing, chatting nonsense with friends, surfin unnecessary things, or just to wait for somebody to online, atleast it brightened me a moment. Right? I am a human, i do need entertainment. But doing so, there are price to pay which i had to sacrifice my sleeping time so that i'll be able to complete my work

Somehow, today i've been told by my boss that since after my teaching, my english has improve to be fluence. It was a compliment to me but indeed, its kinda fishy because they seldom praise about they employees. O,O When good things come to you, bad things will come as well. That i am so freaking incautions step on something. I bet you might think of  SHIT!! YEA RIGHT... Am not, instead i stepped on the amulets accidentally. Its not like i directly step on it. Sigh.. I felt damn sorry and unforgiving myself that until i have bend down my knees infront of god to ask for forgiveness. Sigh... How could i stepped on the thing i always wear close to me, and somehow happened twice at yesterday and today. ARGH!! =(
Maybe im having "shui" gas surrounded me. Please stay away from me as far as you could.

When you expressed your feeling indirectly to someone but someone was not into you like how you did to someone, its kinda look stupid on yourself. Yea, i mean myself. i swear i would never do that again. =S 
I think the best thing that i just stay single for good. But when i have hard time, i do need someone be there for me. Friends would not be there for you always, because they have life to busy with, you just cant kept bothering them. Maybe i can just try to increase my workload, more work less thinking about stupid hopeless untruth unreal thoughts. Been staying single for 2year, it wasn't that bad. I prefer my student alot, they are so naive, pure, innocent, truth to themselves and i don't have to be fake infront of them =)


time for bed. Bed time story, ANYONE? LMAO
goodnight

Apart from the real world and life

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24/3/2010

Just wanna do a short update for my blog, i've been observed that im updating my blog once per month. lol.. I suggest my reader( do i have one?? opps :S ) visit here at the end of each month would be a good idea. Yeah... my blog are so deadening, humourless, unattractive, and what so ever you would call it. 
My birthday was just a week++ ago,  i'm officially 20yrs. Gosh, time sure knows how to flies. Stepping in the tens place value of 2, make me anxious of the coming 3 then 4 then 5 then 6.......... . .. .. 
Not sure whether i'll be that lucky to survive that long. "choi" lol  I'm not worrying of getting older each coming year, maybe a bit will still do. What makes me anxious lot was about my life. I'm don't wanna be like someone live their life in the ages between 20 - 30, spending all the time playing pc game, watch tv, do nothing much in a day. Until reaching 30 or 40 or 50 only realize what need to be done, what to achieve. Isn't that too late for doing so?? But seriously, nothing are too late neither too early for doing something before the end of your life. Unless you're going to suicide right away, that would be so stupid, unintelligent, dumb ass, silly, retard brainless people.


I do believed people do changes in certain period of time. When you grown older, getting mature, ways of looking things are different. You might see it likable instead hating where you used to do or said during the young ages or last time. I've became heartless, uneasily to pity someone even though their situation are bad or unlucky. Sometimes it has to be depend. Maybe they just deserved what they get. Sometimes no matter how hard u work for it, you just don't get what you should deserve. That's the fact, truths, reality of life, anything are possible to happen and its beyond our control. Human are hardly trustable, even their your closer family member, best friends, and people around you. This is a undeniable truths, that's why lies do help. The truth of the existence of lying. Not discouraging to have faith on human, sometimes a little protection is necessary for your own goods to prevent unnecessary problems. 

No matter how life in the past, who they are, what they've done. I'll still love them, accepting them as it is part in my life. Take it in the positive way, doesn't mean all the miserable things happened are all bad. That's the way we learn from it, we grew from it.


To be continue next time, too much to write... O,O!!!
Mom been hospitalize since Friday, for the first time not been in home for so long. Gonna visit her later this morning then head for class. Gosh.... since 8th of March, i've not been staying at home whole day for once Now almost the whole week working, taking care, cooking, cleaning the home, going to hospital, do my worksheets. And the guy in home do nothing except work. WOMEN are NOT MAID for the MAN!!
that's the reason why i hate about guys and married. freaking scary.
Goodnight