Happy Deepavali =)

First of all,
i would like to wishes all the indians out there around the world,
a Very Happy Deepavali.. =)

Yesterday i was being invited to my friends house party, a BBQ party..
the party was organized by her sis, so she just invited few of her secondary classmate..
which is me, May Yi, Kuan Hang, and Wen Yao...
yea... i havent introduced who's the she or my friends i mentioned above..
She's Mei peng. She is my primary and secondary classmate..
But i only get to knew her during the secondary school life..
long story.. haha..
Lets continue with the BBQ party.. XD
But only MY and KH came to the party, only left with WY which he is coming at 12AM due to got things to do.. =,="
didnt get to met him yesterday coz i left earlier.. Hopes there will be another outing again..
But i left earlier at 11.30 with MY when her sis reached to fetch her back.
Because nobody gonna fetch me after the party ends due to my parents want to sleep earlier.. sigh.. sad case, was planing to go home at 2am..
Anyway, thanks for the ride, MY. (if you are reading this now) haha..
Overall, the party was nice.. ate alot of fish ball, pork ball, chicken ball and etc etc.. haha
but it would be more nicer if only there were more of the people we knew were invite..

tht's all for today..
off to study..

Walk alone in the rain

Today after class, the sky have been changed from a day light life fall into night city life..
As everyday after class, im sure i will take a bus to get home..
and walk a few miles after reaching another bus stop...
As u know, the raining cats and dogs approaches us during the evening time..

the rain are getting heavier

the dark clown came and covered all over the blue sky..
the sky fall into darkness and changes the city became dull and old..
the beautiful sunset we shall not enjoy;
and theres no colourful rainbow arise..
theres only rains everywhere you walked..
and the sound of every water dripping on the land..
you can even feel the water splashing when the cars passed by..
the rain fall and the water land on your skin and your belongings..
you can feel the wet all over the body..
the pollution of transportation are decreasing;
as everyone staying at home to avoid getting wet..
enjoying the tv shows or the comfortable bed we belong..
and have a very comfortable sleeping during the raining days...

Whenever i reached the another bus stop..
there will always be a fews stranger there to walked with me with different heading direction..
but somehow i walked all the way home alone this time..
This is my very first time so far happened to me..

I looked up to the sky when i was walking..
enjoying every drop of rain on my face
and i can even breath the flesh air around me

I walked like my leg was in a bad injured..
Because it's very slippery, so i have to be very careful to prevent failing down..XD
somehow I really did felt lonely walking all the way home..
was hoping there will be someone walking with me,
so i would not be feeling lonely all by myself..

nite everyone..
hopes everyone have a very comfy sleeping nite today..=)

Back baCk BACK

Hey... im back...
it's been more than a month leaving my blog growing in dust again..
sorry for the lack of updating..
somehow.. i felt like no use for i to update my blog about my personal life or anything else..
because i think "nobody" gives a damn or any respond to my blog..
wat for to update rite...
anyway... i've just finished my exam in the mid of sept..
you may think i would be free right now..
but the answer would be "NO"..
coz another exam are coming soon on the early of dec..
And i ain't got time to lose.. even now still got more than a month to prepared for the coming exam..

exam was like a thunder storm
if u do not get urself to prepared, then means
you ARE preparing to DIE..
=,="

Anyway.. i found something to share with you guys
Maybe some of u may have see it before..
you would be TOTALLY be sweating: "zha dou" after reading it
WARNING: for those who are going to sit for PMR and SPM or any others exam soon. Please do not get yourself influenced easily by this msg.. hahaha

isn't this message is discouraging
you not to study??
some crap...

Having a very hard life this lately..
few days ago, i walked out from home nearly in the middle of night with no direction at all..
i just kept walking and walking, just to be far away from human, noises, everything..
until i walked to some houses area, there were a playground..
then i sat on the swings and kept swinging..
i just felt so deep down tht time, and kept tearing..
and the neighbourhood there saw me as they were seeing a ghost..
No suprised with that, coz if is were you, seeing a girl swinging in the middle of night.
I bet u will be freak out too..
but in my opinion, i think human being is the most scariest rather than the spirits..
and somehow, i really got myself staying at the playground for an hr++

living in a miserable life

i don't felt like breathing, everytime i breath.
i felt my heart are dying, everything means nothing.
i felt like giving up a part of me, everytime i tried so hard.
i cant taste, hear, smell, see and sense of everything i touched.
i felt so hopeless for everything i've done before.
all i want is to be disappear, so i don't have to face the truth in life.
all i want is to be far away from everything, so i will not be harm.
may i be put in the coffin and rest in peace.
may i be remembered in your heart even i'm gone.
so long to the people i have met and knew in my life..

-J.P-
nitez