In this hour of midnight, I should be gone sleeping either everyone for the sake of good health for body. I was indeed sleeping just now but i just cant, all the heavy thought in my mind. I'm sad and mad about my sis, why cant she change and face the fact. Every time she came home with her personal problem, relationship problem, money problem, medical problem, all sort of problem that you hardly bear with. All the problem, troubles is not as simply as you thought it should be. Its involved hospital, clinic, boyfriends came in the middle of night for not trusting what she said, all kind of ridiculous occurrence. And sometimes its happened so sudden that seems so doubted, out right nonsenses, crazy. Seems like all the problem of hers often occurred has become part of our life that we had get used to it. But sometimes you just get so annoyed with all those problem and how badly you wishes and hopes to have a peace for ONCE for the god sake when she came home. I still love her nomatter who she was, she always be my sister, the one and the only sister. Somehow how badly i hope she realized what she was doing, and awake from it to prevent the same mistakes keep repeating. Everyone learn from their mistakes and grew from the experience to build better future, theres nobody love you more than you love yourself.
Maybe i'm just depressed recently for the coming revision class, preparation for exam, tight work schedule, and the people around me being dishonest when they lied infront of your freaking face. Just be true to yourself, there's no different between you and me if you look at everyone as a human, we are all the same. Maybe there are reason behind the lies. Sigh, just accept the fact of truth underneath the lies.
I should take a deep breath and head to sleep. =O
goodnight.
Wednesday, October 27, 2010
Saturday, October 2, 2010
Someone
It's been awhile since the last post. Maybe due to exam, workload, and class. Or maybe i just lost my motive to blog anymore due to certain of occurrence that makes such a huge impact in my life. But i do believe that no matter how busy your life would be there is always time, it just depend how you utilize your time. Talking about time management, i cant denied that i have a bad time management. even thought i knew the amount of workload needed to be done in a day. I would still spend some hour on online-ing, chatting nonsense with friends, surfin unnecessary things, or just to wait for somebody to online, atleast it brightened me a moment. Right? I am a human, i do need entertainment. But doing so, there are price to pay which i had to sacrifice my sleeping time so that i'll be able to complete my work
Somehow, today i've been told by my boss that since after my teaching, my english has improve to be fluence. It was a compliment to me but indeed, its kinda fishy because they seldom praise about they employees. O,O When good things come to you, bad things will come as well. That i am so freaking incautions step on something. I bet you might think of SHIT!! YEA RIGHT... Am not, instead i stepped on the amulets accidentally. Its not like i directly step on it. Sigh.. I felt damn sorry and unforgiving myself that until i have bend down my knees infront of god to ask for forgiveness. Sigh... How could i stepped on the thing i always wear close to me, and somehow happened twice at yesterday and today. ARGH!! =(
Maybe im having "shui" gas surrounded me. Please stay away from me as far as you could.
When you expressed your feeling indirectly to someone but someone was not into you like how you did to someone, its kinda look stupid on yourself. Yea, i mean myself. i swear i would never do that again. =S
I think the best thing that i just stay single for good. But when i have hard time, i do need someone be there for me. Friends would not be there for you always, because they have life to busy with, you just cant kept bothering them. Maybe i can just try to increase my workload, more work less thinking about stupid hopeless untruth unreal thoughts. Been staying single for 2year, it wasn't that bad. I prefer my student alot, they are so naive, pure, innocent, truth to themselves and i don't have to be fake infront of them =)
time for bed. Bed time story, ANYONE? LMAO
goodnight
Somehow, today i've been told by my boss that since after my teaching, my english has improve to be fluence. It was a compliment to me but indeed, its kinda fishy because they seldom praise about they employees. O,O When good things come to you, bad things will come as well. That i am so freaking incautions step on something. I bet you might think of SHIT!! YEA RIGHT... Am not, instead i stepped on the amulets accidentally. Its not like i directly step on it. Sigh.. I felt damn sorry and unforgiving myself that until i have bend down my knees infront of god to ask for forgiveness. Sigh... How could i stepped on the thing i always wear close to me, and somehow happened twice at yesterday and today. ARGH!! =(
Maybe im having "shui" gas surrounded me. Please stay away from me as far as you could.
When you expressed your feeling indirectly to someone but someone was not into you like how you did to someone, its kinda look stupid on yourself. Yea, i mean myself. i swear i would never do that again. =S
I think the best thing that i just stay single for good. But when i have hard time, i do need someone be there for me. Friends would not be there for you always, because they have life to busy with, you just cant kept bothering them. Maybe i can just try to increase my workload, more work less thinking about stupid hopeless untruth unreal thoughts. Been staying single for 2year, it wasn't that bad. I prefer my student alot, they are so naive, pure, innocent, truth to themselves and i don't have to be fake infront of them =)
time for bed. Bed time story, ANYONE? LMAO
goodnight
Monday, May 10, 2010
Wednesday, March 24, 2010
24/3/2010
Just wanna do a short update for my blog, i've been observed that im updating my blog once per month. lol.. I suggest my reader( do i have one?? opps :S ) visit here at the end of each month would be a good idea. Yeah... my blog are so deadening, humourless, unattractive, and what so ever you would call it.
My birthday was just a week++ ago, i'm officially 20yrs. Gosh, time sure knows how to flies. Stepping in the tens place value of 2, make me anxious of the coming 3 then 4 then 5 then 6.......... . .. ..
Not sure whether i'll be that lucky to survive that long. "choi" lol I'm not worrying of getting older each coming year, maybe a bit will still do. What makes me anxious lot was about my life. I'm don't wanna be like someone live their life in the ages between 20 - 30, spending all the time playing pc game, watch tv, do nothing much in a day. Until reaching 30 or 40 or 50 only realize what need to be done, what to achieve. Isn't that too late for doing so?? But seriously, nothing are too late neither too early for doing something before the end of your life. Unless you're going to suicide right away, that would be so stupid, unintelligent, dumb ass, silly, retard brainless people.
I do believed people do changes in certain period of time. When you grown older, getting mature, ways of looking things are different. You might see it likable instead hating where you used to do or said during the young ages or last time. I've became heartless, uneasily to pity someone even though their situation are bad or unlucky. Sometimes it has to be depend. Maybe they just deserved what they get. Sometimes no matter how hard u work for it, you just don't get what you should deserve. That's the fact, truths, reality of life, anything are possible to happen and its beyond our control. Human are hardly trustable, even their your closer family member, best friends, and people around you. This is a undeniable truths, that's why lies do help. The truth of the existence of lying. Not discouraging to have faith on human, sometimes a little protection is necessary for your own goods to prevent unnecessary problems.
No matter how life in the past, who they are, what they've done. I'll still love them, accepting them as it is part in my life. Take it in the positive way, doesn't mean all the miserable things happened are all bad. That's the way we learn from it, we grew from it.
To be continue next time, too much to write... O,O!!!
Mom been hospitalize since Friday, for the first time not been in home for so long. Gonna visit her later this morning then head for class. Gosh.... since 8th of March, i've not been staying at home whole day for once Now almost the whole week working, taking care, cooking, cleaning the home, going to hospital, do my worksheets. And the guy in home do nothing except work. WOMEN are NOT MAID for the MAN!!
that's the reason why i hate about guys and married. freaking scary.
Goodnight
My birthday was just a week++ ago, i'm officially 20yrs. Gosh, time sure knows how to flies. Stepping in the tens place value of 2, make me anxious of the coming 3 then 4 then 5 then 6.......... . .. ..
Not sure whether i'll be that lucky to survive that long. "choi" lol I'm not worrying of getting older each coming year, maybe a bit will still do. What makes me anxious lot was about my life. I'm don't wanna be like someone live their life in the ages between 20 - 30, spending all the time playing pc game, watch tv, do nothing much in a day. Until reaching 30 or 40 or 50 only realize what need to be done, what to achieve. Isn't that too late for doing so?? But seriously, nothing are too late neither too early for doing something before the end of your life. Unless you're going to suicide right away, that would be so stupid, unintelligent, dumb ass, silly, retard brainless people.
I do believed people do changes in certain period of time. When you grown older, getting mature, ways of looking things are different. You might see it likable instead hating where you used to do or said during the young ages or last time. I've became heartless, uneasily to pity someone even though their situation are bad or unlucky. Sometimes it has to be depend. Maybe they just deserved what they get. Sometimes no matter how hard u work for it, you just don't get what you should deserve. That's the fact, truths, reality of life, anything are possible to happen and its beyond our control. Human are hardly trustable, even their your closer family member, best friends, and people around you. This is a undeniable truths, that's why lies do help. The truth of the existence of lying. Not discouraging to have faith on human, sometimes a little protection is necessary for your own goods to prevent unnecessary problems.
No matter how life in the past, who they are, what they've done. I'll still love them, accepting them as it is part in my life. Take it in the positive way, doesn't mean all the miserable things happened are all bad. That's the way we learn from it, we grew from it.
To be continue next time, too much to write... O,O!!!
Mom been hospitalize since Friday, for the first time not been in home for so long. Gonna visit her later this morning then head for class. Gosh.... since 8th of March, i've not been staying at home whole day for once Now almost the whole week working, taking care, cooking, cleaning the home, going to hospital, do my worksheets. And the guy in home do nothing except work. WOMEN are NOT MAID for the MAN!!
that's the reason why i hate about guys and married. freaking scary.
Goodnight
Wednesday, February 24, 2010
my very 1st company dinner
I was supposing to be sleeping right now... Am not meaning this time i should be on bed now but im not.... . . .. ... .
I fell asleep as i were waiting my clothes to be rise in the washing machine around 1am. After the rising done, walked to my room and get into my bed, sleep. SLEEP!! guess what?!? i felt so energetic after incidentally falling asleep on the sofa for freaking half an hour even though i did comfort myself to sleep, sleep la jian ping, SLEEP, SLEEP, SLEEEEEEPPPPPPPP!!!! But i cannnnt. now great!!
Since i cannot sleep, dun wanna waste time lying on bed. Later sure dream some ridiculous stupid things. Better just get my ass up and do something. So i thought wanna do some revision since later got class. Get my all lazy ass brain cell back to function. (brain owner very lazy so as the brain cell, blood cell are lazy as well as the owner)
Everytime i promised myself im gonna update more my blog, but it was all empty promises =( So i thought just update it now then continue with my revision. =p
i had gotten my result 22feb, it was an normal average result. But hell am felt so blessed for passing all the paper i sat for, because i was prepare that am gonna fail 1 paper. joking la... where got people prepare to fail their exam. Its just low confident, real low, 10% confident sitting for that paper. sigh.... .. .. .. ...
And now i felt so sad not for people scoring high marks than me, its the effort i did not put for revise during routine time. last minutes jobs again =(
Nothing to be regret about the result taken, its the fact already. Regret also no used, cant denied the truth. The scary truth will always be living in my brains memories cell. =/
Facing the truth is better than run away from it. Find the solution to solve for having less possibility regrets in the coming future.
I have to make a change in myself for not being lazy and wanted to enjoy my life, not having fun like go clubbing, take some drugs and get high. lol
I always wanted to go swimming regularly, (neh... dun know someone ar... always got an excuse for not having swimming trunk, for saying it almost half and a year, YEAR) back to climbing activities. hehehe mom said wanna went to broga hill climb someday, but i prefer the climbing at cheras, maluri there, that 1 like real climbing, higher oso got 60degree. Broga Hill that one like walking mountain than climbing. And then i been playing my already grew into dust's guitar almost everyday. =) but D strings broke, cannot play perfect song =(
Talked so much almost forgetting the main topic i wanna blog about. Should change the tittle into " my body system, my result, my lazyness, and lastly my very 1st time company dinner" hahahahaha...
I was having company dinner in tenji, japanese buffet at soho kl there just few hours ago, its was great and fun. seriously, i've not been having such a blast for a long time. the price also nice $$$. boss treating dinner, y bother to eat like hell like hungry ghost to blow ur stomach. I do enjoy my dinner ALOT, tried my very 1st fresh osyter, kinda yuck, maybe not suit to it. Got cheesee osyter, super nice. The buffet got alot variety, not just having japanese type of food, got western, chinese, seafood, steamboat, bbq. think of it edi make my saliva drop. lol
tired of typing, just let the pics speak for it.
okay.. i've been chopped off my ever 1st time freaking long hair,
from this:
To this:
and i'm lovin it with no burden of the heavy long messy hair =)
should back to work, night.
I fell asleep as i were waiting my clothes to be rise in the washing machine around 1am. After the rising done, walked to my room and get into my bed, sleep. SLEEP!! guess what?!? i felt so energetic after incidentally falling asleep on the sofa for freaking half an hour even though i did comfort myself to sleep, sleep la jian ping, SLEEP, SLEEP, SLEEEEEEPPPPPPPP!!!! But i cannnnt. now great!!
Since i cannot sleep, dun wanna waste time lying on bed. Later sure dream some ridiculous stupid things. Better just get my ass up and do something. So i thought wanna do some revision since later got class. Get my all lazy ass brain cell back to function. (brain owner very lazy so as the brain cell, blood cell are lazy as well as the owner)
Everytime i promised myself im gonna update more my blog, but it was all empty promises =( So i thought just update it now then continue with my revision. =p
i had gotten my result 22feb, it was an normal average result. But hell am felt so blessed for passing all the paper i sat for, because i was prepare that am gonna fail 1 paper. joking la... where got people prepare to fail their exam. Its just low confident, real low, 10% confident sitting for that paper. sigh.... .. .. .. ...
And now i felt so sad not for people scoring high marks than me, its the effort i did not put for revise during routine time. last minutes jobs again =(
Nothing to be regret about the result taken, its the fact already. Regret also no used, cant denied the truth. The scary truth will always be living in my brains memories cell. =/
Facing the truth is better than run away from it. Find the solution to solve for having less possibility regrets in the coming future.
I have to make a change in myself for not being lazy and wanted to enjoy my life, not having fun like go clubbing, take some drugs and get high. lol
I always wanted to go swimming regularly, (neh... dun know someone ar... always got an excuse for not having swimming trunk, for saying it almost half and a year, YEAR) back to climbing activities. hehehe mom said wanna went to broga hill climb someday, but i prefer the climbing at cheras, maluri there, that 1 like real climbing, higher oso got 60degree. Broga Hill that one like walking mountain than climbing. And then i been playing my already grew into dust's guitar almost everyday. =) but D strings broke, cannot play perfect song =(
Talked so much almost forgetting the main topic i wanna blog about. Should change the tittle into " my body system, my result, my lazyness, and lastly my very 1st time company dinner" hahahahaha...
I was having company dinner in tenji, japanese buffet at soho kl there just few hours ago, its was great and fun. seriously, i've not been having such a blast for a long time. the price also nice $$$. boss treating dinner, y bother to eat like hell like hungry ghost to blow ur stomach. I do enjoy my dinner ALOT, tried my very 1st fresh osyter, kinda yuck, maybe not suit to it. Got cheesee osyter, super nice. The buffet got alot variety, not just having japanese type of food, got western, chinese, seafood, steamboat, bbq. think of it edi make my saliva drop. lol
tired of typing, just let the pics speak for it.
my employer and my colleagues
okay.. i've been chopped off my ever 1st time freaking long hair,
from this:
To this:
and i'm lovin it with no burden of the heavy long messy hair =)
should back to work, night.
Thursday, January 28, 2010
I lost my soul
life are kinda miserable for me without a reasonable reason to be explain yet miserable doesn't equal to be emotional. A lot things have to be settle but yet nothing that are genuinely important motivate me for doing so. Maybe its because i cant let go and still looking back to the past, all the empty promises was made. =(
Sigh...... . .. .. .. . .. ... .....
night world
Sigh...... . .. .. .. . .. ... .....
night world
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
Return from the long lost journey
Gosh, once again, i abandoned my blog and let the dust grow over it. When is the last time i blog?? Well, i guess nobody will ever know. Why??
Because during Oct, i edited my template, changed to a another specific template copied from the web. I guess i've been bore with my previous standard blog template which giving from blogger.com.
Do you ever notice every post of the date is all the same, that's why you will never know when did i published the post except the month, you can find it from my blog achieve there.
Was lazy to find the problem in the html there coz it was near to exam period during that time i changed to new blog template.(it was not that near, still got 1mth++, ahem ahem......) Will rectify the problems soon.
Anyway, i'm gonna make this post as short as possible. Later have to wash my clothes and then go to bed. Early in morning of 8, have to go for work. Which from now i still got 7hrs before work. O.O!!! Its gonna be the last day of work of the YEAR only. lol
Exam just ended at 16/12/09, kinda felt relief yet depressed of worrying how would the results be, release at Feb, next year. sigh... hope things turn out well for me MARKER so he/she would have the good mood marking my paper. LOL (finger crossed)
Somehow my holidays to genting on 28-30/12 are cancelled due to hotels room are fully booked. Well, its doesn't seems as bad as u thought. Its not like going to genting only allow for once in a life time. Next year still can go what or some others year. Who knows. Right...
My friend already taken the leave on 28 - 30/12, so he thought of going Penang or Melaka. But the gangs who going genting not so sure to follow us to Penang or Melaka. So im searching people to go. around 2-3 people coz we gonna drive our own there. Sigh.. later ended up only him and i going. =.= But doesnt matter how many person are going, having fun and safe trip would be great. Going with many friends but not having fun, the trip would not be so memorable.
If the plans didn't work out as we expected, then let it be. Wont be so awful spending holidays in home. lol At least i can sleep, eat, gaming, watch tv, etc etc or whatever for the whole day. HAHA
Joking... XD Going clean up my FREAKING MESSY room. Till now after exam, i didnt rearrange my notes and books so you could imagine how messy my room could be. I actually sleep on the floor, opps not exactly the "floor", an extra bed took from my parents room. Because my real bed, which is the double decker bed, the bottom bed is mine are FULL with NOTEs. HAHAHAHA so am actually still sleeping on the bed at the floor there =X
Mon went to MV for movie, "avatar" with ex skool mate after working hours. The movie was great, graphic damn nice. well suggested to watch by QC.
Because during Oct, i edited my template, changed to a another specific template copied from the web. I guess i've been bore with my previous standard blog template which giving from blogger.com.
Do you ever notice every post of the date is all the same, that's why you will never know when did i published the post except the month, you can find it from my blog achieve there.
Was lazy to find the problem in the html there coz it was near to exam period during that time i changed to new blog template.(it was not that near, still got 1mth++, ahem ahem......) Will rectify the problems soon.
Anyway, i'm gonna make this post as short as possible. Later have to wash my clothes and then go to bed. Early in morning of 8, have to go for work. Which from now i still got 7hrs before work. O.O!!! Its gonna be the last day of work of the YEAR only. lol
Exam just ended at 16/12/09, kinda felt relief yet depressed of worrying how would the results be, release at Feb, next year. sigh... hope things turn out well for me MARKER so he/she would have the good mood marking my paper. LOL (finger crossed)
Somehow my holidays to genting on 28-30/12 are cancelled due to hotels room are fully booked. Well, its doesn't seems as bad as u thought. Its not like going to genting only allow for once in a life time. Next year still can go what or some others year. Who knows. Right...
My friend already taken the leave on 28 - 30/12, so he thought of going Penang or Melaka. But the gangs who going genting not so sure to follow us to Penang or Melaka. So im searching people to go. around 2-3 people coz we gonna drive our own there. Sigh.. later ended up only him and i going. =.= But doesnt matter how many person are going, having fun and safe trip would be great. Going with many friends but not having fun, the trip would not be so memorable.
If the plans didn't work out as we expected, then let it be. Wont be so awful spending holidays in home. lol At least i can sleep, eat, gaming, watch tv, etc etc or whatever for the whole day. HAHA
Joking... XD Going clean up my FREAKING MESSY room. Till now after exam, i didnt rearrange my notes and books so you could imagine how messy my room could be. I actually sleep on the floor, opps not exactly the "floor", an extra bed took from my parents room. Because my real bed, which is the double decker bed, the bottom bed is mine are FULL with NOTEs. HAHAHAHA so am actually still sleeping on the bed at the floor there =X
Mon went to MV for movie, "avatar" with ex skool mate after working hours. The movie was great, graphic damn nice. well suggested to watch by QC.
at 1st i thought he was Brian Austin Green, the main cast of the terminator 3, aka Megan Fox's man. He is Sam Worthington as Jake Sully in avatar
Zoe Saldana as Neytiri
ok, thats all for now. short post become long post pulak.. @@
goodnight peeps
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