The Sangfroid

Thursday, December 23, 2010

Yet another wednesday

Flightless bird by American Mouth

Currently blogging at the 4am, O,O When my blogging mood sudden turn on, i am so desperate to blog. If i don't, i will just leave my blog grow in dust even thought got thing to blog about. But anything la, since im blogging for myself instead of publicity.

Its another Wednesday again, i always have a blogging mood on wednesday. Why uh? Maybe its my off day and no classes at all since its holiday now. Maybe i just don't need to look at the time living a day on wednesday. But anyway i guess i should just go the bed earlier, since tmr need to work. And hopefully my laptop get fix up as soon as possible, hate using small screen of laptop. Everything seems so small and little, causing difficulty to me to surf maybe i'm not use to it.

Last but not least, i'm happy and glad of receiving a new laptop gift from my uncle. I've been receiving many gift from him throughout the year when i was born. Nomatter what kind of gift, cheap or expensive that i received, it still consider a blessing for receiving it. Am will still be using the old laptop as well since it still usable, it only require to format. Ergh.. regretting of not setting a antivirus in the beginning. Lesson learn.

Hmm, planning to finish 1 of the book i bought this year. Its about handling situation when trouble occurrence in the working environment and people. Some kind like people management, or human resource. I just read selected chapter which related to the occurrence in my working, hopefully finish before the week my company having a week off and settling my personal contract stuff. finger crossed~

In life, theres none completely perfect. There's always up and down moment keep recycling in our life, when theres sadness occur, there will be happiness as well. And in bitterness will come with sweetness as well. It all depends how you handle it and move on, just look at the bright side and stay positive. Not everything are consider bad in life. In chinese term, 苦中一点甜.

Like an example of budgeting, a favourable variances doesn't means its completely good or a adverse variances does not equally to bad at all. Well just handling the fact its better than avoiding it. Just be happy.

甜

酸

苦

辣

goodnight

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

Another Wednesday

人 = 吃饭 + 睡觉 + 上班 + 玩 --- 1
猪 = 吃饭 + 睡觉 --- 2
2 --> 1
人 = 猪 +上班 + 玩 --- 3
人 - 玩 = 猪 +上班
...Conclusion:
不懂玩的人 = 会上班的猪

Okay, its Wednesday again, off day. I just got freaking bored today. I kinda lost my interest in gaming at all. Maybe i should just go clean up my room since exam is over. Was plan to went out today to find chia wei to go along with her to cut her hair but i was so tired and she told me not necessary to accompany her. =/
Hmm... this video kinda truth reflecting on most of the blogger out there

And im currently addicted to this song, a nice 1 indeed

(Oh Babe) I don’t wanna lie, I’m gonna take what you’re giving

Cause I know you’re willing, to take me all the way.. You got me right here.

Combustible. And I can’t wait to finally explode.

The Big Big Bang,(oh)the reason I’m alive,(hey)

When all the Stars collide, in this Universe inside.(yeah)

The Big Big Bang,(oh, hmmm) The Big Big Bang, The Big Big Bang.

Some people like to talk. (yeah) but I’m into doing,

What I feel like doing, when I’m inspired.

So if we take a walk down, the beach tonight,

I bet we could light up the sky. The Big Big Bang,(oh) the reason I’m alive,(hey)

When all the stars collide,in this Universe inside.

(yeah) The Big Big Bang,(oh, hmmm) The Big Big Bang,

The Big Big Bang.(Wooooooo) Take it from me,

I don’t wanna be, mummified, sometimes I feel so isolated,

I wanna die.(Wooooooo) And now take it from me, if you got it.

Every time, so baby, bring your body here, next to mine.

Next to Mine! I don’t wanna dream! Hmmmm I just wanna live!

So baby,lets not miss this thing! The Big Big Bang, the reason

I’m alive, when all the Stars collide,in this Universe inside.The Big Big Bang, (oh, hmmm )The Big Big Bang, The Big Big Bang.

Big Big Big Bang, Oh babe, oh babe, oh babe.

I wanna enjoy this coming holiday to the fullest.
night~

Tuesday, December 14, 2010

Im still awake 6.30am

OMFG!! It 4.50am currently. Can't believe i'm still awake now and so motivate to blog. HA! =p
I should have gone fatigue since i awake in the morning of 10 to revised all the necessary topic before going for exam. It's kinda disappointed and depressed once after the exam is over rather than being relieve or what so ever, it's seems to applied on the friends around me as well. Kept complaining to each other about the time given wasn't enough to attempt all the 5 question. Sadly, if the result out wasn't at the rate of passing, we might as well do better next time and learn from mistakes that never ever try to revised all the 5mth course in a month. But then since cat, i never did what i said to myself, especially i started work after the introduction paper. Consequences of not revising consistently, will lead to overload of data and brain cell overdrive when trying Hto absorb "everything" in 2 week or a month. Especially, when you need to absorb 500pages for only 1 paper, excluding the notes copied, note give, revision note, etc would exceed up to 800++ or more. Definitely a disastrous, no differences with committing suicide except your still can sleep, eat & play. But no choice, who the heck ask me chose to work full time while studying. Therefore, if you can't handle multiple task, you should have consider to let go, ie, work don't study either study don't work. Or else you must known yourself well and be very determine, balance your working and study. OR or your came from a wealthy family, no financial problem to worry, why would you bother to work?(as im reflecting to modern century)

Don't be sensitive over the issue i brag about, i am actually pointing myself that i need to make a change in my life. Sigh, fundamental level wasn't easy to go through, what said the future professinal paper. jp ar jp ar... sigh =(

I got so many plan and activities to do for the week ahead me. First thing first, i want to go swimming, back to my workout track. Have a sudden thought of going diet, but wont forbid myself eat that eat this. haha.. Sad case, i have to back to work later in less than 8hr. Think of positive side, i will be having a week holiday off before welcoming the year of 2011. Hmm, thinking where to go.. lol
But according to all the previous year, mostly i would stay at home and online 24hr =,=
Eeee... hopefully history wont take place for this year. finger crossed*
Can't wait to laptop to get format, its hard to survive without own pc.
Anyway, it was dad birthday, 13/12 would like to wishes him

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAPA,

stay HEATHLY & STRONG as always

Yawn~ Signing off here

我真是唔知我是一厢情愿 或者两情相悦, 不敢再想了

Friday, November 26, 2010

VIRUS

My laptop kena virus somehow doesnt look like a normal virus, more like a hoax. i never use internet explorer as my browser, suddenly today once i switched on the laptop. some link just fucking pop out from the internet explorer, i use the task manager to end it, switch the IE(internet explorer) in to offline working mode, do anything as i could do end the virus taking over my laptop system. But somehow it doesn't work at all, it just kept worst. Worst than you could imaging that the virus pop up with those sex link more than 6 tab in a window, and 15 window so far i see. And if you try to close the link as will appear a notice for closing the tab, somehow it just wont allow me. Because the blardy virus damn geng or wat they shut everything when i try to shut them down. It even get worst, that the virus fight with me by kept pop up window when i close it or try to close it. I even called up my IT friend for the help, as he told me he never see such virus so damn serious. And by the way, i had to say bye bye to the internet world until 15th Dec. Because nobody could be trust at outside for sure to repair your laptop. Have to wait my friend free after his big project. Sigh, i could only on9 on midnight using my bro pc =S to check the passesunlimited only, no msn, anything want to find me just leave me email(hotmail), or sms me.
SUCK max, because i have decide to format my laptop without backing up anything to avoid any chances of virus coming back from the future, i guess i just need to download 300+ songs again
HAHAHAHAHAHAHA X<

END of the ONLINE World, see ya next year.
virus come at the good timing, no???if u know wat im talking

Friday, November 19, 2010

Future thoughts

I have a sudden thought about my future plans. Hmm.. where should i begin with. I thought of giving myself a break from the working world by resigning from the job i has worked for 2 year on the coming year 2011. Wanted to take a break for a intake for my study as well to cover all the syllabus of the previous paper which has been taken. I use to read the question and get the diagram in short period of time but i am not now. I felt that i have been disimprove, and got worsen as well. Maybe due to work overload, but i shouldn't blame the caused of it. Maybe its because i'm getting lazy, lazier, laziest and lazzieasst. =S I kinda lost my passion of study and my time management suck max. Who the hell come back from work, still have the freaking mood to study and revised. Seriously, i didn't even bother to TOUCH it until come to a month before the final exam. Great, everything come with a price. i know i deserved it, sigh.

About my sudden thought was, i have make up my mind that i will continue working while studying as well. But definitely gonna change my job, but yet nothing gonna change my love of teaching. Maybe teach on weekend??? Hmm.. the problem is, can i handle the workload? or either my time management for study. I'm worried it will make things worst for my study, that deep down inside me already knew my study gonna be completely neglect. Any suggestion??

don't be deceive on what you sees

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Frustrated

In this hour of midnight, I should be gone sleeping either everyone for the sake of good health for body. I was indeed sleeping just now but i just cant, all the heavy thought in my mind. I'm sad and mad about my sis, why cant she change and face the fact. Every time she came home with her personal problem, relationship problem, money problem, medical problem, all sort of problem that you hardly bear with. All the problem, troubles is not as simply as you thought it should be. Its involved hospital, clinic, boyfriends came in the middle of night for not trusting what she said, all kind of ridiculous occurrence. And sometimes its happened so sudden that seems so doubted, out right nonsenses, crazy. Seems like all the problem of hers often occurred has become part of our life that we had get used to it. But sometimes you just get so annoyed with all those problem and how badly you wishes and hopes to have a peace for ONCE for the god sake when she came home. I still love her nomatter who she was, she always be my sister, the one and the only sister. Somehow how badly i hope she realized what she was doing, and awake from it to prevent the same mistakes keep repeating. Everyone learn from their mistakes and grew from the experience to build better future, theres nobody love you more than you love yourself.
Maybe i'm just depressed recently for the coming revision class, preparation for exam, tight work schedule, and the people around me being dishonest when they lied infront of your freaking face. Just be true to yourself, there's no different between you and me if you look at everyone as a human, we are all the same. Maybe there are reason behind the lies. Sigh, just accept the fact of truth underneath the lies.
I should take a deep breath and head to sleep. =O
goodnight.

Saturday, October 2, 2010

Someone

It's been awhile since the last post. Maybe due to exam, workload, and class. Or maybe i just lost my motive to blog anymore due to certain of occurrence that makes such a huge impact in my life. But i do believe that no matter how busy your life would be there is always time, it just depend how you utilize your time. Talking about time management, i cant denied that i have a bad time management. even thought i knew the amount of workload needed to be done in a day. I would still spend some hour on online-ing, chatting nonsense with friends, surfin unnecessary things, or just to wait for somebody to online, atleast it brightened me a moment. Right? I am a human, i do need entertainment. But doing so, there are price to pay which i had to sacrifice my sleeping time so that i'll be able to complete my work

Somehow, today i've been told by my boss that since after my teaching, my english has improve to be fluence. It was a compliment to me but indeed, its kinda fishy because they seldom praise about they employees. O,O When good things come to you, bad things will come as well. That i am so freaking incautions step on something. I bet you might think of SHIT!! YEA RIGHT... Am not, instead i stepped on the amulets accidentally. Its not like i directly step on it. Sigh.. I felt damn sorry and unforgiving myself that until i have bend down my knees infront of god to ask for forgiveness. Sigh... How could i stepped on the thing i always wear close to me, and somehow happened twice at yesterday and today. ARGH!! =(
Maybe im having "shui" gas surrounded me. Please stay away from me as far as you could.

When you expressed your feeling indirectly to someone but someone was not into you like how you did to someone, its kinda look stupid on yourself. Yea, i mean myself. i swear i would never do that again. =S
I think the best thing that i just stay single for good. But when i have hard time, i do need someone be there for me. Friends would not be there for you always, because they have life to busy with, you just cant kept bothering them. Maybe i can just try to increase my workload, more work less thinking about stupid hopeless untruth unreal thoughts. Been staying single for 2year, it wasn't that bad. I prefer my student alot, they are so naive, pure, innocent, truth to themselves and i don't have to be fake infront of them =)

time for bed. Bed time story, ANYONE? LMAO
goodnight