my very 1st company dinner

I was supposing to be sleeping right now... Am not meaning this time i should be on bed now but im not.... . . .. ... . 
I fell asleep as i were waiting my clothes to be rise in the washing machine around 1am.  After the rising done, walked to my room and get into my bed, sleep. SLEEP!! guess what?!? i felt so energetic after incidentally falling asleep on the sofa for freaking half an hour even though i did comfort myself to sleep, sleep la jian ping, SLEEP, SLEEP, SLEEEEEEPPPPPPPP!!!! But i cannnnt. now great!!
Since i cannot sleep, dun wanna waste time lying on bed. Later sure dream some ridiculous stupid things. Better just get my ass up and do something. So i thought wanna do some revision since later got class. Get my all lazy ass brain cell back to function. (brain owner very lazy so as the brain cell, blood cell are lazy as well as the owner)

Everytime i promised myself im gonna update more my blog, but it was all empty promises =( So i thought just update it now then continue with my revision. =p 
i had gotten my result 22feb, it was an normal average result. But hell am felt so blessed for passing all the paper i sat for, because i was prepare that am gonna fail 1 paper. joking la... where got people prepare to fail their exam. Its just low confident, real low, 10% confident sitting for that paper. sigh.... .. .. .. ...
And now i felt so sad not for people scoring high marks than me, its the effort i did not put for revise during routine time. last minutes jobs again =(
Nothing to be regret about the result taken, its the fact already. Regret also no used, cant denied the truth. The scary truth will always be living in my brains memories cell. =/ 
Facing the truth is better than run away from it. Find the solution to solve for having less possibility regrets in the coming future.
I have to make a change in myself for not being lazy and wanted to enjoy my life, not having fun like go clubbing, take some drugs and get high. lol
I always wanted to go swimming regularly, (neh... dun know someone ar... always got an excuse for not having swimming trunk, for saying it almost half and a year, YEAR) back to climbing activities. hehehe mom said wanna went to broga hill climb someday, but i prefer the climbing at cheras, maluri there, that 1 like real climbing, higher oso got 60degree. Broga Hill that one like walking mountain than climbing. And then i been playing my already grew into dust's guitar almost everyday. =) but D strings broke, cannot play perfect song =(

Talked so much almost forgetting the main topic i wanna blog about. Should change the tittle into " my body system, my result, my lazyness, and lastly my very 1st time company dinner" hahahahaha...
I was having company dinner in tenji, japanese buffet at soho kl there just few hours ago, its was great and fun. seriously, i've not been having such a blast for a long time. the price also nice $$$. boss treating dinner, y bother to eat like hell like hungry ghost to blow ur stomach. I do enjoy my dinner ALOT, tried my very 1st fresh osyter, kinda yuck, maybe not suit to it. Got cheesee osyter, super nice. The buffet got alot variety, not just having japanese type of food, got western, chinese, seafood, steamboat, bbq. think of it edi make my saliva drop. lol
tired of typing, just let the pics speak for it.

  my employer and my colleagues

okay.. i've been chopped off my ever 1st time freaking long hair,
from this:

To this:

and i'm lovin it with no burden of the heavy long messy hair =)
should back to work, night.

I lost my soul

life are kinda miserable for me without a reasonable reason to be explain yet miserable  doesn't equal to be emotional. A lot things have to be settle but yet nothing that are genuinely important motivate me for doing so. Maybe its because i cant let go and still looking back to the past, all the empty promises was made. =(
Sigh...... . .. .. .. . .. ... ..... 
night world

Return from the long lost journey

Gosh, once again, i abandoned my blog and let the dust grow over it. When is the last time i blog?? Well, i guess nobody will ever know. Why?? 
Because during Oct, i edited my template, changed to a another specific template copied from the web. I guess i've been bore with my previous standard blog template which giving from blogger.com.

Do you ever notice every post of the date is all the same, that's why you will never know when did i  published the post except the month, you can find it from my blog achieve there.
Was lazy to find the problem in the html there coz it was near to exam period during that time i changed to new blog template.(it was not that near, still got 1mth++, ahem ahem......) Will rectify the problems soon.


Anyway, i'm gonna make this post as short as possible. Later have to wash my clothes and then go to bed. Early in morning of 8, have to go for work. Which from now i still got 7hrs before work. O.O!!! Its gonna be the last day of work of the YEAR only. lol 


Exam just ended at 16/12/09, kinda felt relief yet depressed of worrying how would the results be, release at Feb, next year. sigh... hope things turn out well for me MARKER so he/she would have the good mood marking my paper. LOL (finger crossed)
Somehow my holidays to genting on 28-30/12 are cancelled due to hotels room are fully booked. Well, its doesn't seems as bad as u thought. Its not like going to genting only allow for once in a life time. Next year still can go what or some others year. Who knows. Right...
My friend already taken the leave on 28 - 30/12, so he thought of going Penang or Melaka. But the gangs who going genting not so sure to follow us to Penang or Melaka. So im searching people to go. around 2-3 people coz we gonna drive our own there. Sigh.. later ended up only him and i going. =.= But doesnt matter how many person are going, having fun and safe trip would be great. Going with many friends but not having fun, the trip would not be so memorable. 


If the plans didn't work out as we expected, then let it be. Wont be so awful spending holidays in home. lol At least i can sleep, eat, gaming, watch tv, etc etc or whatever for the whole day. HAHA
Joking... XD Going clean up my FREAKING MESSY room. Till now after exam, i didnt rearrange my notes and books so you could imagine how messy my room could be. I actually sleep on the floor, opps not exactly the "floor", an extra bed took from my parents room. Because my real bed, which is the double decker bed, the bottom bed is mine are FULL with NOTEs. HAHAHAHA so am actually still sleeping on the bed at the floor there =X


Mon went to MV for movie, "avatar" with ex skool mate after working hours. The movie was great, graphic damn nice. well suggested to watch by QC.

at 1st i thought he was Brian Austin Green, the main cast of the terminator 3, aka Megan Fox's man. He is Sam Worthington as Jake Sully in avatar

Zoe Saldana as Neytiri

ok, thats all for now. short post become long post pulak.. @@

goodnight peeps

Finger cross

It's November now, time sure knows how to flies. Well.. i cant just sit there and do nothing to get my whole day wasted. Time is precious, so i've  promised myself to stay away from the LT as much as i could. Since the classes started from Jul till ended at Oct. Ive not been touching my notes and files to revise due to many troubles happened and work. Revision class is coming soon, so i better get myself revise everything before it start. If not, i'll bet myself would not know what the heck is the lecturer is teaching. (finger cross, x   x)
Hope everything goes well during my studies and exam.

Memories

I've been kept thinking about him a lot this lately. Those days which were sweets, sour, bitter and spicies's life we've been together, but we didn't hold on to make it through due to a lot misunderstood of circumstances. Maybe our faith on each other were not strong enough, maybe we just aren't meant to be, maybe after breaking up which is best for both of us. There are many possibilities of maybe, who knows right? Finding true friends was hard, finding a right true love of your life was even hard. Which he is could be your partner of life, holding you up when you fall, supporting and believing you in achieving the goals of life. Building trust between each other was the most important thing in life. Which faith has the power and abilities to leads two person to hold  and stay on through many level of life no matter how challenging or difficult it is. I've been seeing many of couple, even thought they don't love each other anymore but they're pretending nothing happened and kept holding on to save the married just for the sake of the perfect family life for the children. The part of fragility in married makes me lost the faith on believing it. Married was just a part of life, it was not an compulsory rules that every human being has to been through the process. Without it doesn't make your life equal to imperfection. For me, life are about keep learning, sharing and contribute what is best for the society. Building a better future for the generation and  gives out your love who are really needed. I'd really hope i can make it real in life and do the best i could. 
History will always be history, whats left for me now was just the memories of us. I've to learn to forgive and let go. And hoping that time will heals my broken heart. 

Yesterday is history. Tomorrow is a mystery. Today is a gift.

Its late now, will be stop right here. 
goodnight everyone.

Magic Crystal STONE

Its middle in the late night currently, and still am awake instead having bed time like others. Lol. I felt bored while i was doing homework for my work which is my work's homework. =,=
So i stared at the stone light and then makes me thought of the magic crystal ball. Which we saw it on tv wheres western people(caucasian) likes to use it to predict the coming future.

I just went to google about the "magic crystal ball" then i clicked on any of the link to checked it out. I typed my question, and the results was just some pictures appeared in the ball(dun be so dirty minded) XD
A baby head appeared in it for answer of my question, kinda freak me out man, the babies appearance was horrified. This is the link "magic crystal ball" . As what stated there, The all-knowing crystal ball. You must interpret what you see! Interpret for what i seen?!? I don't wanna think too much about for what i asked. Because i knew it just wouldn't happen.

Okay, cut the crap. Em.. so i went to switched off the light and snap a picture by pretending the stone light was a magic crystal ball..

This is how the stone light looks like after switching back the room light. Anyway, sorry about the poor quality of the picture, was taken through the webcam. hehe

A clearer picture of the stone light
Thats all for now, signing off~
nitezz peeps =)

Stop crying your heart out

continue from the previous post...
During Friday, i planned to stay at hospital to accompany and take care of my mom. Since after the surgery, i knew it would be difficult for her to move around. But then she kept telling us she will be fine without us, asking us to go home and rest. Around 11pm, khang wei came to fetched us home. On the way home that time, Khang wei asked me to help him to do some of his work which is filling up part of detailed from the printed brochure to be send out in the morning. The brochure are like an advertised of eumora product, asking people to participate a function to hear a speech. So we headed to mcd instead going home. We went home around 3 after completing 500+ of brochures. It was my pleasure helping him, since he gonna be my future sis in law soon. Wishing they both, khang wei and my sis will be having great married life in future, with all my bless for them.

It was kinda sad, less than 24hrs my mom are forced to come back the next day after the surgery. At 1st the nurse told my mom that her immune system are very weak after the surgery, and she'll be infected by bacteria and diseases flow from others cancer patients. It was not nice when the others patient heard the conversation. Then the doctor said its because the hospital are not enough bed for the coming patient. Sigh..
Currently my mom staying at home. She have to carry 2 bottle filled with dirty blood connected to the body with her along everything she walk to a place from another place. She looked so distressing and sorrow with the burden of carrying the 2 bottle everywhere. Also like living life in torture and starvation by vomiting every single hrs..


Thats all for now, have to rest earlier. Tomorrow gonna accompany my mom to hospital in the morning and then have to work and classes. Anyway, a song i heard from a movie, "made of honnor" which is "stop crying your heart out" sang by Oasis. I've been watching this movie few times, everything i watch it gives me a different feels. Never gives up and regret for things you never try to do.

Hold up, hold up
Don't be scared
You'll never change what's been and gone

May your smile
(May your smile)
Shine on
(Shine on)
Don't be scared
(Don't be scared)
Your destiny will keep you on

'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

Get up
(Get up)
Come on
(Come up)
Why you scared?
(I'm not scared)
You'll never change what's been and gone

'Cause all of the stars have faded away
Just try not to worry, you'll see them some day
Take what you need and be on your way
And stop crying your heart out

We're all of the stars, we're fadin' away
Just try not to worry, you'll see us some day
And stop crying your heart out

Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out
Stop crying your heart out