April 27th 2011 abnormal health

So many thing gone through last last week and last week, 1st was busy with work and late for class, 2nd was mom admit to hospital for surgery, and lastly was attended fair well dinner held on last sat.
  But  everything's fine, glad. mom admit to hosp on Thurs, surgery on the next day. Was planning to visit her after my class, but sadly due to last Fri was a good friday. I'm been told to work on tht day which my boss have to leave early for church. And tht was fine for me, i still can visit her on the next day at afternoon after my work. And guess wat, they planned to held tht fair well dinner for my 2 colleagues at the night on sat, i was like in the middle one, hardly pick which of it. I consider quite closed to 1 of my colleague and of course i don't wanna miss it and the visit as well. Miserably, i only have one soul and one human body, if my soul discharge from my body means im dead and i don't wanna be dead yet, there's still many thing for me to learn and people to take care. so b4 coming to sat, i made my decision that i will pay a visit to my mom instead going for dinner. But hell yeah, they change their decision and the dinner will make it at next day, Sunday. Mom checked out from hosp on sat with my dad and come fetch me by the time i finish my work. So i guess the food i bought for mom can eat at home. lol But its a good thing my mom came back early, its mean she recovered fast but she seems like in deep pain written on her face when i saw her. But everything seems fine after that. finger crossed~


Anyway, today still got 1 and a half hr before i finish work. Something bad happened on me, same thing happened during the beginning year of 2010 or 2009 for few time. I hardly recalled when its the last time it happens since its been awhile ago. I've never told anyone about this incident at all during 2009/2010 untiltoday i went back after work. I was really in pain and nearly fainted and i told my mom how it occurred and i was told having expansion of blood. " 膨血"   
I was truly suffocate and terribly torture by it, because still got 1hr be4 the work end, i thought i might as well hold on and bear the pain and continue do the teaching. Out of nowhere, this illness came very sudden. At 1st, you will be like 1 side of eye sight will turn abnormally. If ur healthy and when u look at one object there will be only one and the same figure appear by observing with both eye either either one side of eye. But i saw the one object with 2 same figure appearing with my both eye and its like the object i saw floating in the air. somehow like illusion, but its was not illusion, its was like small part of 1 of your eye just went blur, and very difficult for me to read Q for student. Normally i can read the Q when the book is upside down facing me, its to suit the student but today i read wrongly most of the time. But luckily, my student corrected me. Then after half and hour after the illness struck me, my head felt heavy head ache and i felt terribly cold than usual. That moment, i felt its like coming to end of my life. I was wanted to tell my boss tht i dun felt well at all. But another boss approach to my student and stand just right beside me. And that's the moment turn me off. Then i just bear for another half and hr, and quickly went back after that. 

Its was so hard to find him to chat with me this recently since he only on9 during the morning & sometimes non at all. I can feel theres no connection from him, but atleast try to talk with me. I jsut need somebody to talk with, mostly i only speak out when i was working. If i were at home i will beeome autism. I hardly speak to my mom its was becoz if i speak too much. we will end up quarreling and debating with each other. I should go to sleep, since my hair almost dry. Goodnight

i look so dead. hahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahahaha!! Am i ready for dead? still got bit doubt about it.

我的第一次

这是我第一次在部落格里写中文。 有点奇怪，噢～ 可能不习惯吧。 那是因为我好久没写过中文自从我在中学初中二决定停止上华语课。 可能是因为我对华文不感兴趣。 其实当前的我写着这文章是多么的困难， 大多数都是用谷歌把英文翻译去华语然后再复制和粘贴过来。 哈哈！ 我还是比较喜欢粤语，我有小小失魂魄，“yi ga ngo dou ng zi ji geh han dou gon gen mug yeh" zzzz

Have to sleep early, later on 10 in the morning got class. But i still got 2 level file to rush and adjustment but got problem with it. Sigh, what to do??? Hmmm... dun sleep, good idea!! Thinking of going to pc fair after class to get a hard disk. any recommend?? And i still have to work and class on sat. And my erp ordering work to do, hope my looks wouldn't turn out like zombie. I think i will survive through. lol
goodnight

我突然很想拥有幸福的感觉

ps: 明日就是李嘉微的生日， 我在这祝她生日快乐!! a tremendous 21st birthday ever

Motivate

Its hard to believe I doing my work at this hour since i was just back from work @ 9pm. Due date on next monday since my boss passed it to me earlier, i just felt so motivated to finish it earlier. Actually i just finish it a minutes ago, still got bit adjustment to do, think i'll just inform her on thurs when i work. Sadly, still got another half haven't pass to me. This week so rushing to complete my level file, have to cover those lot higher level students. And this coming sat boss are not around, have to stay and work till close. So i'm gonna be late for class for 2hr, i hate to be late for class but late is still better than skipping it. 

Deep down inside me was hoping so badly that class will be cancel, so that i would not need to be worried of missing out any important note and being late for class yet have to search for seat and while some others might look at u like u were a freak or some kind weirdo. But that not i worry most, because am not suprise if they think i'm weird, i do see myself as a freak. HAHAHA. Should go to sleep early, have to wake up before 8 for the medical speech. And hoping everything going smooth on the coming sat. finger crossed~

night, adious~

 song of my recent soul, 

but i guess he will never knew how i felt for him.

even though we were in the same class for years 

but never talk to each other

悼念张国荣

I've never forget the date of today for every single year since his death. Remember the year when he suicide i was just form 1. He is the only HK artist that make me remember and sing complete lyrics for a cantonese song. I was so obsessed with his song during the days when he just passed away. But after few years i still do, i still sang his song once in a while. Somehow i felt his song meant something so much inside it but i couldn't find out what it is. 
Anyhow, i not feeling well this few day. Not as those common illness such cough, headache, i just felt something wrong with my body, and my breast there felt damn pain. =(
Going for DNA test this sat, hopefully when i get the report, everything would be fine. Since the cancer genetic bought forward from mom to inside me will be active during my 39yr will not the activate so soon.
I bought some book last month, breast cancer, dental problems, total self-confidence. Definitely share out those important info i learn from it. And recently, i just felt tired for work. Wishes to have long break away from my 2yr job, felt depress by communicating with my students, maybe i'm just feeling tired, tired of putting so much effort for each of the student. I hardly tear off, i just felt sad. =( Maybe worrying of getting a serious illness soon. But i try as hard to stay healthy, eat healthy and even started to sleep early as before like 1am. And sometimes i will just go for vegetarian. Forbidden myself taking any chicken from now on, because they said chicken carried cancer gene inside them. 
Ciaoz

风继续吹

YOU

My previous post was more than a month ago, blog seems so deadening. And i had a bad news to deliver, i don't think i will blog more often than last year means it could be worst than a post per month. I bet mostly my blog will ended up a post per year. LOL I lost my motive to blog, things happened. I wanted to make a diary for myself, since blogging in internet is kinda publicity. yeah, i know i can set the view to privacy. Hmm.. maybe i will consider that.
Its been more than 2 year since the break up, and i was struggling during the healing process. It wasn't his fault at all, because i am the one broking his heart. I took a lot of time to think about it and courage and hoping i will not regret by making the decision. But i realized I am soon after i made the decision but before this i think which is best for both of us. long distance relationship are hard to survive. Not that i don't want to hold on, but everyone around us doesn't look well at our relationship. " 所谓竹门对竹门， 木门对木门  " But its alright now, let the past be past. whats is gone are gone. Taking it as a love lesson class, and all i knew he found somebody else that would love him much more than i do, i bet. As long as he was happy, that's all matter. 
Anyhow, i found somebody that meant so much to me now. I can almost chat anything with him, laughing over silly things. But this time i will kept this feeling forever, don't wanna spoiled the friendship between us. Like what if he doesn't have the same feeling as i do, and things turn differently after i tell him. Naw, being friend will do. And i don't get a chance to know him much, he tends to be kept things to himself, i bet. 

Ok, birthday coming soon. First time ever mentioning my birthday on blog. Hmm... i got nothing wanted as my birthday presents. Just hoping everyone i knew were safe and happy. and i hope i will survive this year, since somebody predicted i will be having accidents this year. finger crossed. 

Im in love with all the Travie McCoy songs

i bet u would like it too.

 Goodnight 

Kinect

Hardly believe that my bro and dad both agree to bought a kinect, what a surprise once i came home from work. I never thought that this kinect are so interesting and fun, As usual after work and class, i would be back home at late evening or night around 9/10pm. Who else would go for exercises at night? I did that once before, jog at night but what i get after that was ton of mosquito bites and people saw me gave me a kind of looks. lol 

During off day, i don't prefer to swim alone as it less fun but i did that once in while when i was desperate for swimming. lol This usually applied to jog as well. Low motivation to jog by all myself if theres nothing to aim for, such as marathon event, diet(i don't do diet), etc etc.

Kinect can act as a motivation as there's none companies when you needed so. Usually when you exercises alone probably would last for 1hr or less. Using kinect, u can do exercises likely more than 2hr, as the time goes by without your notice at all. Because all of your attention was pay on the tv as the games was going on. I been playing the kinect for 3hr continuously since Fri till today, now I'm suffering whole body muscle ache. LOL And the muscle has obviously shown on my arm as i been kept playing the boxing, table tennis, bowling, volley ball. As for leg, not much changes, i just play soccer ball less than twice. Most of the games i am playing required hand more than legs. 

Games i play as i mentioned above are the kinect sports(RHS), i rated it 10/10 as it contain party, main, and mini games especially for those people like sports alot. I don't suggest buying the disc shown on the LHS; game party in motion as the game system are difficult to control. You can tried to buy another disc having the similar games and let me know how was it.

Secondly, both games above not bad, the kinect adventures(LHS) got stories contain games, will tried to finish the games by this month if possible and make a review about it. Because theres "something cute" inside the stories mode. And body and brain exercises(RHS), part of the games are similar to FB "who has the biggest brain". More toward to multi-tasking, IQ, calculations, etc. After the game, they will match your current age with the age measure from the score u get. i got match with 33year old. At first was 41yr but i got improved, but still =(

Its 4am, should go to bed now, will review the dancing game on next post.

And lastly, bottom video i recorded when i was playing the bowling, its kinda shaky when you watch due to 1 hand holding handphone and 1 hand need to play the bowling, duh...

Goodnight world.

Dad playing bowling LOL

me? :p

Mariah Carey - All I Want For Christmas Is You

Wishes all of you

Happy Merry Christmas

&

Happy New Year

I have a great time today for having dinner with Eugene at pj there, the strawberry field cafe. The foods taste great and affordable. The last time we ever meet was 2 year ago, its kinda funny thinking back how we get to know each other. That our friendship build begin from customer - worker based relationship. And i never knew he was studied in sri sentosa during the secondary school life. Anyway, today was his birthday. Christmas boy. lol 

The most happier thing today was getting back my laptop from my ever best "heng dai", Benjamin. Deeply appreciated of his help that he fixed my laptop well without formatting at all. He found the virus in the internet explorer and just deleted it, as simple as that. Nowonder IT student memang la IT student.  Really fortunate to have such friend, the one i can talk all kind of things when nobody give a shit about it. But there still 1 person i can share thing with, talk all kind of crap and works but... nvm hahaha

Hohoho... Christmas gift i ever wanted was to grant me unlimited wishes to make... hahahaha

nah... im just joking. so many wishes doesn't mean it will all wishes come true unless u work it out to make it happen. But hopefully one thing could be real was everyone stay healthy and happy as always.

And... and.. for little bit selfish wishes was, grant me motivation and luck so i will be motivate to study and luck to pass my exam. lol

goodnight